I have learned today that i have a long way to go...

Life is but a journey, we all know our destination, its how we get there that matters.  I say this all the time.  On this journey, you run into people and events that cause you to adapt, alter, or remain the same.  I heard a statement of "Some say 'its times like this that make character' but its really times like this that shows character."  Love it.

Well, I'm looking at my character and trying to determine what is me, what makes up me, and what drives me.  Today, I realized, despite how much I've accomplished, I still have a long way to go.

Take my relationship for example.  It is obvious that we both have learning to do, in regards to learning each other and how to communicate with each other.  A labor of love no doubt, but yet and still, work.

 In regards to myself, even after all the searching in the world, I find myself looking for the next chapter in my life, wondering when I realize that I am yet in the middle of a new adventure.  Toying with the idea of culinary school, yet again.  GMAT is inevitable, and of course the law school ideal that has come and gone year after year.  Where I will go next?  Not sure....

In regards to my family.  I spent most of my life growing up without them, and I've spent the last 4 or 5 years around them.  So what now?  Travel back and forth?  I know this sounds like a very minute thing for me to be thinking of because you probably have seen most of your family all the time growing up.  I can't relay the confusion into words...

Then there is Daddy.  Trying to figure out which weekend to come see him, and then scared to see him at the same time.  Had a bit of a run in with him at the last visit, which you know, I'm not holding against him.  But since I have an issue with confrontation, I don't know, I'm nervous about seeing him.

Lastly there is Mama.  She just canceled her plans to come see me.  I'm a wee bit disappointed, but you know, it happens.  So why am I disappointed?  Hmm....

So many questions in my mind, why on earth don't I know the answers?  Probably because after all that I have been through... I still have a long way to go....