Freaking Myself Out

So I found this website that talks all about PCOS (Polycystic Ovaries).

http://www.pcosupport.org/

So much for trying to be informed.  I think I just had an anxiety attack.  This website states that I have a high risk of miscarrying, premature birth, and death during birth.... I'm sorry, but that is SO NOT COMFORTING.  I know I shouldn't be freaking out, but I'M FREAKING OUT!

They have discussion boards too.  Oh Father in Heaven, why did I read the discussion boards.  They are talking about different treatments to get pregnant and treatments they have to have after miscarriages, which are apparently ridiculously common, and what tests to get at what time of the month to determine what is out of whack that week.  I'm not mentally ready for this!!!! [pause while I wait for SOMEONE to slap some sense into me...still waiting...]

Yep, I'm definitely having a panic attack....

Oh Dear God, please give me peace onto today.  Please bring peace back into my life.  My nerves are on edge, and it doesn't help that this pain is keeping me in bed.  I'm afraid to admit that I am depressed at this point.  I want to go and get more blood work done, but I know you are telling me to be patient.  I want to run crying, but I know that you have placed me here in my holding chamber to strengthen me on my own.  Yet and still, I am scared.  Please come into this vessel Lord.  I wish so much to feel your presence.  I know the enemy is already defeated.  I know that you have deemed me a conqueror.  Right now Father, I need help not for my unbelief, but for my belief.  In Jesus' name I pray, AMEN.