Live every moment like its your last, live every day like your breaths were in short supply, carpe diem.... All of these sayings relay the same message, "Tomorrow is not promised" so you should enjoy every moment with that in mind.
Now it sounds simple enough. With the mentality that you may not wake up in the morning, you complain less, smile more, and realize that the little thing really don't mean anything. It really, despite the concept of immediate and undeniable doom, is quite optimistic.
So, for the past year, I have not done that. I think I may be selling myself short, but in all honestly, I really have just been going with the flow in regards to any and every thing. My focus has been to accomplish one or two things in my life within a certain time span, which I have. But in the mean time, my life has quite literally been on hold.
So now I find myself on the cusp between life G and life H and I look around and see how everyone's life seems to be just a wee bit more enjoyable than my own and it causes me to wonder, when was the last time I enjoyed my life? Despite the current state that I'm in and the transition that I'm in, it should not deny me the little moments in life that I am entitled to enjoy... so why am I not enjoying them? If anything, I'm a wee bit depressed that I'm not enjoying them, causing me to look for the most extraordinary events and circumstances to cause or get into just have some sense of "at least I'm not waiting around for the change to experience stuff." Yet still, I feel like I am lacking.
So what is next? Really Jazz.... What is next?
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