Thoughts on Losing Weight

So I started walking 3 miles a couple times a week to help prepare me for the Alzheimer's Memory Walk.  I am great with it now.  So because I can't afford a gym, I'm looking for other options.  I got a bike, but the chain doesn't work right on it.  I mean, it was a cheap Huffy after all.  So now what.

I read that people who own a bathroom scale lose weight faster.  Did I mention that I am afraid of scales?  They always seem off by like 15 pounds....

But I think my main focus has been monitoring my food intake.  I consider myself a healthy eater.  No pork or beef or (very limited) fast food.  But to enhance what I already eat, I'm looking to include more fruit, and less bread, in my diet.  (mmmmmm bread....)  I've been looking up food and snack recipes and will post them soon but I really am looking to see if you all out there can help me....  Please post snacks that you utilize to help crave those mashed potato cravings.  =)

I wear your dog tags when you're gone.

I notice today that people stare and wonder why this sickly looking woman is wearing this dog tag.  But then again, maybe they don't ask, maybe they just know.

When I was on the flight back from Germany, I became violently sick.  I threw up several times.  It was probably brought on by the crying I was doing.  It was overnight and I tried not to bother any of the other passengers.  Suffer in silent is the type of person I am.  

But the lady next to me, she asked, "are you crying over the person who's tag you hold in your hand?  Is he serving in the war?"  She knew how my heart breaks then as Layci knew today at brunch.  "Jazz, you don't look well."

I don't know what is wrong with me.  Is it because I can't hear your voice?  Or because I know you're not walking through the door before I leave?  Its not like I don't know you're on your way home... So what is wrong with me?  

I can't seem to make any decisions without running them by you.  Its not like life won't go on if you don't know every moment of what I do.  I do so much on a daily basis.  So why am I so solemn without you?

Motivation Needed: Soliciting Motivation

So I have lost my motivation, aka, up-and-at-them attitude to tackle the things I wanted to.
1.  Working Out
2.  Business
3 . The Relationship

I think its due to a depressed stated I've been in.  So what do I do?

I know if I'm focused on one, the others will follow.  I think what I'll do is join a gym.  Yeah, I know.  I hear my money going down the toilet.  But I need the motivation.  I love kickboxing and the like.  I know if I have to go there, and there is a schedule I am forced to be on, well, it makes sense.

We'll see how this goes.  Can I find a gym in both Round Rock and Plano?  WE SHALL SEE!